When you're gone.

Every time you're away, the feelings of uncertainty, worry and paranoia all come like waves of a tsunami. We've been thru this quite a number of times actually because you've gone back to Melbourne quite a lot while we're together. I know every time we go thru, we mean well for each other but every time I get upset and we end up arguing which leads to us being too upset to talk. I know it's my fault because I get upset, but it confuses me why I always take everything you say personally and think that it's a bad thing. You would always reassure me in every way possible to make me less worried, less uncertain and less paranoid because.. from all the fights we had, I slowly learnt that it is hard but I would rather us fight then break up and never have the chance to talk to you.

I love you Marcus Peter Hernan. I don't know what I'd do if something were to happen to you. You are the love of my life. I cannot wait for the day I get to Melbourne and see you again. I can never get used to you being away. We haven had much time to talk cause of the time difference and your working time. :( That sucks.

I miss you.