The Climb

So I am aware that I have not blogged in a while so let me briefly tell you what has happened to me.

• Working as a volunteer at ISB and tutoring at night.
• Spent 10days without Marcus.
• Arranged my Uni stuff and getting ready to get my Visa done.
• Made new friends, like George, Dan, Faiz and such.
• Went out til ultra late when Marcus wasn't around.
• Sorting out my CV(now actually)
• Missing my CHMS friends loads :'(
• Hung out with random friends.
• Getting super NERVOUS about going to Melb.

so yes that might actually summarize the thing I've been doing. Sad really, so little things! But yes, been depressed at times. Things like friends, family and life make me so unsure of so many things. Like am i doing the right things? Choosing the right way? Friends-wise is really disturbing really. Some people who i care about sometimes turns out to be the people who care about me least, even so I'm still friends with them. People who I thought didn't care as much turned out to be more caring than I thought which is good. But some just take me for granted you see. I'm not trying to say that I'm the greatest friend in the world but don't just hangout with me and when others come along just toss me to the side like some trash. I don't know. I've been feeling like this for quite a while. Like literally i feel like I have no friends but I know that's not true cause i have FUCKING AWESOMEST FRIENDS EVER!! Although, Marcus tells me at times some people just use me cause i can drive, I tend to push that to the back of my mind. Needy much. But I guess sometimes I'm too naive, and I don't see it like that.

*GAD sorrry I tend to bring my depression to my blog as you can seeee from above*

Anyway, working at ISB ain't that bad. Even tho some people tell me that. HAHA. But yes, no pictures yet. My laptop for some reason won't let me. Piss me off. But yes.

TO ALL MY FRIENDS: I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH! I REALLY TRULY DEEPLY DO!!

I'm really excited/nervous/scared I'll be leaving in less than 2 months. It scared me really. But I shall be living with Marcus's family for like a week before moving into Hawthorn House. Relief really. At least I can get used to Melbourne for a bit before moving in. Hopefully I shall be meeting Hamish, his Gf and David. They're going to be close to where I live so convenience!!

OK I know you're sick of me talking crap and random shit. I shall find some shit that's more interesting to talk about. Also, will try to blog more often now.

Chloe