I'm yours.

I miss all of you.

HAHA a child at heart?
Model/photographer/adventurer? You decide.
The absolutely most adorable couple :)
Lynn's Birthday
At the beach with my GANGSTAZ
Candid except Winnie :)
My LOVERS :)
HELL YEAHHH!!
haha skillz
At my house.
At Angel's.
Superstar & his admirers :)
My lovelies :)
Prom'07
Oh Dear. :S
Silly boys.
Awesome Adam.
Chrissy :)
Jenniferx :)
Picture is worth a thousand word. Or gasps. Or laughs :)
Nick's birthday.
MIAOOOOO :)
THE WALL.
Biology class.
Coffee people. Dinesh photo bomb.
At Chris's party :)
I want nobody nobody but chu..
GUYS, DO NOT SAY ANYTHING! ESPECIALLY YOU MARCUS.
My sexy beast and Adam :)
Prom '09
At Amelia's before prom :)
Singapore trip with my lovers.
My love :)
Somewhere in Qlap ;)
Take 2.
We're awesome :)
She's 14y/o and WAYYYY taller than me.
Boarding house :)
Mrs Canterford :)
Harnn
The boys HAHA
Angels.
Silly.
I miss you.
My Gang:)
Ling & Whai
Winnieeeee :)
OHHHH I MISS YOU GUYS :(
ERNNY and my daughter.
Serial Killer.
Bunny face

Trademark? :)
CANDY :D
Who is that sexy thang? HAHA guess?
Awesome-ness.

I will look for more older photos :) I miss you guys ad these photos make me smile everytime i see them. You all will forever be in my heart :)

x
Chloe

I miss Everyone :(

ok so this is my first post after I got to Melbourne. It's been quite a hell of a 4 weeks here.. I spent the first week at Oma's(Marcus's grandma) house the first week and it was great :) i felt at home there.. I couldn't believe how much it felt like home.. Then I moved out and moved into my own place :( it was hard the first night.. I was hoping that Marcus would stay over but sadly did not happen :( But i got thru it badly.. I've been living here for 3 weeks and I THINK IT'S AWESOMEEEE :) I made a few friends but sadly quite a lot of them will be moving out but more are moving in :) haha.. One of them is BOOGIE :) haha He's so funny. I can't wait for him to meet Dinesh :) haha.. I will try to put up his picture soon. Also Ian, he looks like Zazaly but chinese.. He's one of the ones who are moving out :( and lots more lar.. haha.

Some photos from Xmas and Marcus's birthday :)

Marcus & Nana :) awww much
Marcus and his parents
Aunt Karen :)
:)

Kesha,Uncle Mark, Marcus and Nathan
Kesha is like 11 and she's super tall. Nathan is 14 :)
Marcus cutting the cake. Oma is sitting next to him :)
Singing " Happy Birthday "
Xmas Dinner :) Food was good haha.

I will post up more photos when i get them :) I Miss Everyone sooo much :(

When you're gone.

Every time you're away, the feelings of uncertainty, worry and paranoia all come like waves of a tsunami. We've been thru this quite a number of times actually because you've gone back to Melbourne quite a lot while we're together. I know every time we go thru, we mean well for each other but every time I get upset and we end up arguing which leads to us being too upset to talk. I know it's my fault because I get upset, but it confuses me why I always take everything you say personally and think that it's a bad thing. You would always reassure me in every way possible to make me less worried, less uncertain and less paranoid because.. from all the fights we had, I slowly learnt that it is hard but I would rather us fight then break up and never have the chance to talk to you.

I love you Marcus Peter Hernan. I don't know what I'd do if something were to happen to you. You are the love of my life. I cannot wait for the day I get to Melbourne and see you again. I can never get used to you being away. We haven had much time to talk cause of the time difference and your working time. :( That sucks.

I miss you.

Kiss me.

Damn this is was suppose to be posted on 24/11/09 ahaha. it's already December. Leaving in 17 days. Shittttttttt

la la la..

I'm so tired. Not really. If I was, I wouldn't be here blogging. Anyway... Just got back from TUTOR at Boarding House. Answering Isa's Question : I tutor a year 7 girl, well not technically tutoring. I help her with homework and stuff. Nesh comes and help to, when he gets his benefits *wink wink nudge nudge* HAHA I have a love/hate relationship with tutoring at boarding. I like being around the people and feeling like family BUT I am so impatient so when I tutor, I want to kill!!!! Yeah but ain't that bad. NESH was so fucking annoying tonight. He kept saying I'm FAT!! I tried to hit him in the nuts but failed! GOD considering the things I did for him (nothing really AHAHA) But yeah.

*sing* Kiss me beneath the milky twilight....

Shit.. Getting side tracked!! Anyway.. Today was shit, literally shit! At school, they had the BGIC week thing right? Well, the year 7 to 9 kids were doing sports, I don't get how that is BGIC ok! Yes back to the shit part. I had to follow Ms Ross (new librarian/PE teacher) cause she lost her voice at Forbessia(?) , NO ONE TOLD ME SO I WORE MY NICE SHOES TO SCHOOL AND I HAD TO WALK IN THE MUDDY FIELD!!! My socks felt soggy *bleugh* But after that, I got to stay in the library. Not long tho. :( Walked around and stuff. Damn tiring. Tomorrow I have to like drive the student counsel people to Pusat Bahagia ok!! LIKE FTW I'm the driver now? Dangit. I have to put up photos onto boards and such. See, what my life has become? HAHA. Nesh doesn't come early to school cause he thinks that all these things that I do, INSULTS our intelligence!! But I mean we all have to start somewhere right?

*sing* Kiss me thru the phone....

GAHHH side tracking! Oh I saw Jennifer on Sunday at Lucky. Dim Sum was gooood. I am going to miss cheap and chinesey dim sum. I need to hang out with so many people before I leave. But between ISB in the morning and tutoring at night, makes it really hard.

Marcus is leaving this Sunday to Melbourne yos! And I shall be seeing him on 24th December. Quite nervous to see his family. CAUSE they're white!!! I am so not being racist. They might have different view of things >.<>

OHHHH yesterday I finally met Hamish! He was cool ^^ We grab some stuff to eat and we played COD, then George, Lee, Dan and Raymond came to play too. They were kinda pissed that we won't play the normal one BUT I like Modern Warfare better. I want to try Modern Warfare 2. The freaking knife throw was so fucking awesome! Wonder if I can actually use it tho. Oh Vell.

Went to JIS to have dinner with Marcus and we watched a bit of Mall Cop while waiting for Sharif to come. MALL COP is the SHIT! We ate while watching, then he had to go set up so I was alone in the music room :( THEN Nesh came to pick up Mukesh, apparently he saw my car so he came in!! WE ARE GOING SHOPPING TOMORROW!!! I'm going to get an iPod, secret santa and stuff..

Chloe

The Climb

So I am aware that I have not blogged in a while so let me briefly tell you what has happened to me.

• Working as a volunteer at ISB and tutoring at night.
• Spent 10days without Marcus.
• Arranged my Uni stuff and getting ready to get my Visa done.
• Made new friends, like George, Dan, Faiz and such.
• Went out til ultra late when Marcus wasn't around.
• Sorting out my CV(now actually)
• Missing my CHMS friends loads :'(
• Hung out with random friends.
• Getting super NERVOUS about going to Melb.

so yes that might actually summarize the thing I've been doing. Sad really, so little things! But yes, been depressed at times. Things like friends, family and life make me so unsure of so many things. Like am i doing the right things? Choosing the right way? Friends-wise is really disturbing really. Some people who i care about sometimes turns out to be the people who care about me least, even so I'm still friends with them. People who I thought didn't care as much turned out to be more caring than I thought which is good. But some just take me for granted you see. I'm not trying to say that I'm the greatest friend in the world but don't just hangout with me and when others come along just toss me to the side like some trash. I don't know. I've been feeling like this for quite a while. Like literally i feel like I have no friends but I know that's not true cause i have FUCKING AWESOMEST FRIENDS EVER!! Although, Marcus tells me at times some people just use me cause i can drive, I tend to push that to the back of my mind. Needy much. But I guess sometimes I'm too naive, and I don't see it like that.

*GAD sorrry I tend to bring my depression to my blog as you can seeee from above*

Anyway, working at ISB ain't that bad. Even tho some people tell me that. HAHA. But yes, no pictures yet. My laptop for some reason won't let me. Piss me off. But yes.

TO ALL MY FRIENDS: I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH! I REALLY TRULY DEEPLY DO!!

I'm really excited/nervous/scared I'll be leaving in less than 2 months. It scared me really. But I shall be living with Marcus's family for like a week before moving into Hawthorn House. Relief really. At least I can get used to Melbourne for a bit before moving in. Hopefully I shall be meeting Hamish, his Gf and David. They're going to be close to where I live so convenience!!

OK I know you're sick of me talking crap and random shit. I shall find some shit that's more interesting to talk about. Also, will try to blog more often now.

Chloe